This is…

… what I wrote in my 10 mins free writing:


A strange date really. Why did not anybody chose this as the end of the world? Well, we do not know what will happen today and what will happen at 21/12/2012. Why this one? It does not really make sense but which of the ends of the world that have been depicted since I have been born have made sense?
Was just wondering if these talking about “the end of the world” are the same like in the middle ages or other major changes in history and mankind. Will we learn? Will there be a “Age of the Aquarius” where we will have peace and fair conditions for everyone?
I would love that. That is something to write for, to live for. In the end it is all about  healing and love. Love yourself. Who really does that? Not a lot of people I should think. Those who preaches it are so often just scam as afraid as everybody else just making money in a different way. Those who really got it just keep away from it all. Well, unless they want to teach but what does teaching really change? If the pupils are not ready for it they won’t learn. I more and more believe in this. If you are not ready you won’t learn.
This free writing seems to free something creative in me. I guess it is a good idea to do it all the time. But I also have the trouble with schedules. It seems to cage me in and take the fun of the writing. Too much a task. But how else can I manage all I want to write while working full-time? Should I stop working full-time?
No, i don’t think so. Besides that I do not want to disappoint Andy even more in me I think it is necessary to stay in contact with the real world. And wow how many characters can you find working in a supermarket? This is a writers heaven. Really. So many stereotypes. Life is always better than fiction because fiction just can not develop as much fear, cruelty and greed than there is in life. So there I am back at the end of the world. Greed will bring us all down and even though I am nearly 42 I still can not understand it. Why would you risk our earth and a peaceful living just to make money and have more power over others? What makes these people tick? Maybe that is what I am writing for. To find reasons for this. But are there any reasons? Probably what spiritual people say: Their soul has to experience how it is to be greedy and then karma comes back and they have to learn. But can you not just get your wits together and do it anyway without hurting others?”

I have just adjusted some question marks and some capitals and left the rest as I wrote it. I find it really interesting how much you can write without really thinking. I have given myself 10 mins every day. Just to start up and set myself a schedule for the rest of my writing. I think I wrote about it yesterday. That is what I refer to in the schedule bit. Yesterday I followed it but got this feeling of being caged into a routine and not being free. Which does my creativity in. It just blocks me. But if I just bugger around going along as it comes I can not get all the blogs + a novel done. I need to have a plan. So I started thinking about the schedule as a basic pattern that I can follow but can change things as it comes. You still have to be flexible as life always throws unexpected things at you. Today it felt a bit better. Am already changing the schedule bit by bit but I keep it in mind that I do not lose track of what I want to do.

Well, maybe that was not interesting at all for you but getting yourself organised is probably one of the most important tasks to tackle when you want to write 🙂



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